So much can change in just one year.
On the left is me this time last year, life was dull, bleak, miserable and I was suffering so badly. Heartache, depression, anxiety, body confidence, weight and being surrounded by the wrong people.
On the right is me at the start of this week.
Happy, bright, confident, healthier, less anxious, and not because I’m in Greece but because I am surrounded by the right people. (If it wasn’t for these people I wouldn’t be in Greece. I don’t know where I would be.)
I can finally see all of the obstacles I’ve overcome, the progress I have made and how much better off I am now. My heart still aches from time to time and depression doesn’t disappear but I have so much more control over my emotions and thoughts.
We all have bad days, we’re human. But the biggest change for me is how I choose to handle myself on the darker days. I get out of bed, I get showered, I call my friends or speak to my family. I leave the house, whether it be to go to work or just to get outside, I eat a good meal, I write or read. I don’t sit and wait for the world to swallow me, I get off my arse and keep going.
Time really does heal all wounds. You are left with scars but over time the scars will fade too. Time is everything, this time last year I couldn’t get out of bed, or shower or call for help. I just wanted the world to end. So just keep going. Time and frame of mind can change so much, but only if you help yourself along the way.
I had wrote a long post, one that shares more on the progress I’ve made, that documents the highs and lows but I’ve been having such a good time I’ve not yet finished it. I might share it later but for now I don’t feel the need.
Last year driving my car in the dark when it was raining didn’t scare or phase me at all. Now, I’m terrified of it because I want to survive, I want to be here.
Just keep going.