Here is a post I wrote a little while back. I’d just like to add that almost all has been resolved now. I’ve had ups and downs emotionally over the last few months but things are looking up! I’m enthusiastic about life and very much looking forward to putting all the anger and hurt behind me 😊.
Emotionally I haven’t been great recently. Don’t get me wrong I’m okay. I’m just exhausted by all the crap thats happened over the last few weeks. Being accused of bad mouthing somebody I truly admire or being told I’m delaying the process of moving on. Well hello! That’s all I’ve been trying to do for months now.
I’ve had enough of the sicky feeling in my stomach, the angry talk, the stupid arguments which get us nowhere, the headaches from not being able to eat properly, the puffy eyes because I can’t keep from crying and the stress these things are causing me and those around me. I’m so confused and scared.
I’ve decided that going forward I will not make time in my life for anyone who causes me or anyone around me unnecessary pain. It won’t be easy because sometimes the pain a person causes is not intentional. However no matter how much you love or care for someone if they cause you to hurt you have to let them go. When it comes to my mental health I have to prioritise myself. My friends and family understand this and support me.
I have made some positive progress over the last few days. I’m loving the part time job, the hours are a little awkward but it’s worth it! I’ve now lost 2 stone 5lbs so I’m staying on track! I’ve sorted my CV so I can look for a second job if I wish. I’m going to move in with my BFF in a few months, we’ve sorted out the house rules and finances. We’ve just got back from a spontaneous escape to Skegness and everything is looking up 😊💕
This year might be one of the toughest but it will be the best year of my life so far!