Quick Update – Last night I went to bed debt free. I slept like a baby, (Excuse the clichè)! I have a part time job in a small leisure centre on reception and my auntie is home! Kay and I have booked our flights for Germany in February and life is looking pretty good!
Truth be told.
I had a rough weekend, tears, panic, feeling overwhelmed, angry, stressed, the usual suspects. It could have been avoided had my ex checked the post when I’d asked. I’m still a little angry about this but trying my hardest to just let it go! 😡 One things for sure, I really miss my bestfriend 😢💔
I’m still amazed by the pain that loving someone can cause a person. The anger comes and goes, so do the tears and the pangs of grief and then I realise how far I’ve come and how much happier I am in my own skin. It’s a battle I wasn’t prepared for and it’s proved to be the hardest on my road to recovery but it’s going to be worth it.
The hardest situation I’m facing right now is with my best friend. So my ex and I have a mutual best friend. Not just any friend, my absolute rock, the one who saves you from yourself when you need it most, she injects life into me and reminds me that I am capable of doing so much more than I realise. I love her. However our friendship causes me to hurt. Mentally it’s the last string I have linking me to my ex and that period of my life. So how do you handle this situation?
- Be honest about how you feel.
- Acknowledge it is an issue for both of you.
- Don’t try to hide the truth from each other or anyone else.
- No lies.
- Set boundaries.
- Keep working through it.
That’s about as far as we’ve got. All I know is losing my best friend would cause my far to much heartache. They say the best relationships are worth fighting for and working at and it’s important people are aware this doesn’t just apply to romantic relationships. As everyone says, time heals all wounds.
Mentally I’m the best I have been for a very long time, I had 3 consistent weeks prior to this weekend! No tears, no nausea, good sleep and I was surrounded by my friends and family. This is a huge achievement for me and for the first time ever I have some idea of how to help myself when I’m feeling low. You have to remember its more than okay to not be okay everyday. It’s funny really because I started to worry a little when I had been okay for those 3 weeks! Life is a beautiful, funny, scary and difficult adventure!