Good Riddance 2017 (Time of your life)

2018 will be the best year of my life.

This year has broke me. My life was turned upside down and I had no idea how to handle that. (I still don’t, but I’m learning.) I’ve made mistakes, I’ve done things I’m not proud of and I let people get the better of me.

“Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me.”

Although my parents have accepted me home with open arms I feel as if I don’t have a permanent address, I’m facing redundancy and most likely won’t have a job this time next month, my heart is still shattered, I lost a loved one, watched others lose loved ones and battling depression is harder than I ever imagined. But here’s how I see it; I have the best friends and family imaginable, a roof over my head and not just one but several. Redundancy will allow me to clear my debts and start fresh. My heart may be broken now but I believe everything happens for a reason and that sometimes things happen to you that you don’t deserve, but only to make way for better things that are more deserving of you. Losing a loved one has taught me life is short and to love hard. As for the depression, it has lead me to meet some of the most amazing people in my life. I know who my real friends are, its brought me closer to my family and loved ones, its also teaching me plenty about myself, who I am and who I want to be.


I don’t want to recap this year. I want to forget about it, wipe it clean and move on. However there are a few people who I really want to thank for standing by me and helping me overcome the darkest of days. If I don’t mention you by name please don’t be upset, there have been so many incredible people which have came into my life this year but without these few I honestly don’t know where I would be, (P.s It’s about to get soppy)!

Most obviously; Mum, Dad, Uncle Kev, Ali G, Lucas and Georgia. I truly am blessed to have such an adoring and supportive family. I know I must drive you all crazy and my tantrums and tears must have caused a few disagreements but I love you all so much and I’m so lucky to have you all.

Kieran (aka Kiki) – My bestfriend in the entire world. Not many people put up with the amount of shit from me that you do! The highs and lows, the insane impulsive decisions, last minute road trips for no other reason than me wanting to go, the tears (and amount of white t-shirts I’ve ruined over the last 12 years) the hours of pointless or confusing conversations, the 3am help me phone calls, the I need cake with so much chocolate frosting it could cure anything and everything and for never judging me, for always supporting me, helping me through every problem I face and for never leaving me when I really need you. I am one of the luckiest girls alive to have a best friend like you.

Kay (aka Kaywee) = The girlie friend I always dreamt of growing up. I’ve never had many friends that are girls. I always found it hard to trust them or find things in common because I was so used to being with the boys. I used to watch the chic flicks and feel a little deflated that I didn’t have that special girlie bond with anyone, then you came along. You annoyed the shit out of me. Like a pre-school kid I had to learn to share and I wasn’t best pleased and then, I’ve no idea what happened but you became my rock. You’ve done so much for me this year, you’ve held my hand every step of the way and I will never forget that I owe you a handbag! :’) You have, and are still teaching me so much about what kind of life I should be living and how to be okay on my own, no plans just go with the flow. These last few months have been an epic disaster and without you I would not have made it. I love you and I am so grateful to have you in my life.

Toria, Nancy, Katie and Marie – I’ve known you all for years now but when I do think back over the last year and any good times I’ve had you were all very much a part of that and I hope we have many more to come in 2018 ❀

Jill – Honestly, I don’t know where to start. You encourage me to be a better person. Whenever I face a tricky situation you’re the first person I turn to for advice. You treat me like family and I am honoured to be treated so. Yourself and your family are truly wonderful and I’m so thankful to have met you.

Jake – I won’t say to much but I do want to say thank you. You’ve done so much for me these last few months, been there for me at 2am when I can’t sleep or can’t stop crying. You’ve listened to me try and work out all of my problems (in one go) over and over and over! You’ve drove me to Mccys at 4am because I had a craving for nuggets and ice coffee but most importantly you let me be myself, no judgement, no questions, you just let me be me.

I’ve had so much support this year and I would like to say thank you to everyone who has helped me this year and taken their time to read my posts.

2018 will be the best year of my life.

Back in June I made the below list of things to do in 2017, so here is what I did and didn’t achieve. Those in red I didn’t get around to, but I’m very proud of what I have achieved and done this year. Despite everything I’ve made some amazing memories. I’ll be back in 2018 with my new years resolution(s) and the next to do list!

  • Go to Coventry Godiva Festival
  • Go to 2 gigs
  • Get another tattoo
  • Take a day trip to the beach
  • Visit a theme park
  • Read 10 books! (5)
  • Lose 2 Stone
  • Be on the radio
  • Book a sunny holiday
  • Dance all night (whilst drunk.. of course!)
  • Clean out my closet
  • Karaoke night
  • Win the Bingo
  • Play Golf
  • post 50 blog posts
  • Go to Astley Book Farm
  • Jump around at Jump In Leamington 
  • See three new places in England
  • Get lost somewhere
  • Go the Belgrade to see something… anything!
  • Complete a maze
  • Try a tequila shot
  • ENJOY MYSELF!

 

2018 will be the best year of my life.

I will travel, I will write, I will find a job I love, I will party in the sunshine, I will make new friends, I will make the best memories with my best friends, I will help people, I will figure out who I am and I will heal my heart.

So good riddance 2017, thank you for all you have taught me, I will remember these lessons forever and they will help me on my journey to ensure my life is as beautiful as it possibly can be.

I hope you all have the best new year, thank you for joining me on my journey.

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