It’s a clichè phrase but one that tends to always be true. It normally takes time to find or see the reason and sometimes the reason is not all you’d hoped it to be. That wasn’t the case for me.
With everything that’s happened up till a week ago, being signed off work, having to leave my home, the breakup, I knew there would be a reason for everything, I just didn’t expect to find that reason quite so soon, nor did I suspect it would break my heart once again.
My Grandad Mike sadly passed away last Tuesday. Today is his birthday. He would have been 89! He lived a long and good life, he said so himself. Losing a loved one is the hardest part of life but knowing he is no longer in pain and that he was happy makes me feel somewhat better.
Rewind a few weeks.
Being off work and having too much time on my hands to think, I became my Mum’s shadow. Everywhere Mum went, I went. It was like a child’s dream, I couldn’t help but laugh to myself as I thought back to when I was 6/7 and didn’t want to leave my Mum’s side or go to school, now here I was more attached to her than ever!
Over the last 3 years especially my Mum has done so much for my Grandad, they went shopping every Thursday without fail and as time went on and Grandad became less independent, my Mum became his guardian angel. For anyone who doesn’t know my Grandad he could be the most stubborn and insensitive old man! He rarely showed much affection and didn’t appear very fond of any particular person. However when it came to my Mum he was a different man.
I spent more time with my Grandad in those short 2 weeks than I ever had before. We bonded over Narcos, placed bets togethers, he gave me some great advice and encouraged me to eat. Grandad started to give me a kiss and a cuddle and tell me he loved me. He promised me everything would work out for the best. He was a different man and I honestly felt like I got to know him over those 2 weeks.
I loved the admiration Grandad had for my Mum. Hearing him speak so highly of someone was unheard of to me. His eyes would light up when Mum was around, Mum gave him life.
If I hadn’t been going through such a tough time I would never have had the opportunity to spend that time with Grandad. To get to see him in a different light, to have my affections returned or to bond over the horse racing. As far as reasons go, I don’t think there could have been a better one.
Happy Birthday Grandad, I love you.