Don’t leave home 


I feel like leaving home has ruined almost all opportunities for me.
I now have to earn a certain amount of money to ensure I can pay my rent, pay for my car and the food in the fridge. I indulge on takeaways, buy too many books and spend money on clothes and other items I could live without. Is that what I’m living for? Truth be told I have no idea, but I feel like it is.


So what’s my path? To save to buy a house, go on a few nice holidays? Have a baby, settle down? Erm.. no thanks, I’m not ready for that.


So is it possible for me to really achieve anything now I’ve left home? I can’t afford to take the job I really want and I certainly can’t afford to go to uni so I can get any other job. I don’t particularly want a career, heck, I’d rather be a stay at home wifey. Holidays lead to debt which leads to a year like this one. My question is what do I do now?


This is genuine. Its how I feel today and any advice would be welcome. I don’t want to hear that it will all work out in the end because I am out of patience and that certainly contradicts the phrase ‘go out and get what you want‘. Yes it may be okay in a few years but I need to know what to do now.




I already feel better than yesterday. I don’t have any answers or any more of a clue but I just feel less overwhelmed by it all.


I decided not to delete the post just because I felt a little brighter, I think it’s good for others to know how you really feel and that they are not alone in it either. I don’t think it has much to do with age, I think how I feel is probably pretty normal.


So today I have decided not to worry too much about tomorrow. I realise I am not on my own and that a bad day is just that. It’s a bad day, not a bad life. I would still love to hear any advice and stick by my original ‘I don’t want to hear that it will all work out in the end’. I want to know more about the here and now and how you deal with feeling low or angry. What little things pick you up?



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